Showing posts with label identity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label identity. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

WHOOOOOOOO are you? Who Who... An Identity Crisis of Miniscule Proportions




For years I have been known online as SlikRX. (pronounced “Slik - are - ex”) When I went on to XBOX Live, most of my online friends just call me “Slik”. My friends are likewise known by THEIR handles. Even after I’ve met them in person, I will usually call them by their nickname/handle and not their real names. And conversely, very few of them call me Jeff.

I guess I’m a bit weird that way. BUT, in my defense, the nicknames & handles people chose are often, to me, a more accurate name for someone. After all, these are names people gave themselves, and/or are from personal nicknames.

And I like that.

Now I’ve got Balthazario as my WoW main, and I’m having a bit of an identity crisis. I don’t really know which to go by. When I post comments on other peoples’ blogs, I will refer to myself as “SlikRX/Balthazario”. I PLAY a toon named Balthazario, but I don’t really identify with it. I still think of myself (online) as SlikRX. I guess I never really have immersed myself in the game yet. That’s REALLY strange, because I *DID* get invested in my old pen & paper (“p&p”) Dungeons & Dragons character, Vex. For quite a few years, we were one & the same.

For whatever reason, that “soul transference” just hasn’t taken place here with my Drae toon. Huh…

At some point I will get Ventrillo (aka “Vent”) so I can verbally chat with my raid/party members, and THAT will actually be even more odd. I know I will be called “Balth” or some version of Balthazario, and it will be a learning process to respond to that name. If someone calls out “SLIK!!!”, I will respond, in real life and online. It’s part of who I am. I identify with that name.

Not so much for dear little Balthy.

Does anyone out there get into their characters, or at least feel simpatico with it? (ie, you respond automatically to your character’s name)
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